Inside/outside of the last month
Second year at BSSM - what a whirlwind journey! The last few weeks have been incredible and very difficult to describe but I'm going to do my best. From an inside perspective: If I had to choose one word to sum up this journey so far it would be tears. Every class and church day have had tears at some point. Every day. It turns out when you ask God to help you love people better, he helps you love yourself and see his love for you better and that inevitably involves a few tears. Or a lot, actually. Some moments, I know why I'm crying, many moments I don't, but I feel so alive and I trust the process. Or, more specifically, I trust Him. His kindness, His faithfulness, His wisdom. I was trying to describe this year to a friend today who did BSSM2 last year. I said I've been learning to connect my head and my heart without shutting off either, while still being led by my spirit and not my heart without ignoring my heart, being okay with not understanding without ignori...